30 out of 100...! Is this Marks?! Slap! Slap! I spent a lot for u, gave u whatever you needed, wasted thousands on your tuitions, still... What's the result? RED MARKS?!!
The child listens this silently, with a heavy heart. He knows, he has to listen this from many more places. He is making himself ready. Papa is a friend of so many neighbours, even the grocery shop owner. He'd go and tell everyone. The child would be scolded from every side.
The child also knows one more thing. He'd fail in the next exam. But is too young to say this. Why won't he fail? He has the habit of overstudy. His day begins with pinchings and pushings by his mother early in the morning for his tuitions. He has to present himself there by 6, or even 5.30. The teacher is praised because he is never late there. Why would he? He knows he won't earn money if he doesn't go there. It is his daily bread. And what else does that teacher do? He cannot get through the books of his student, just reads and explains the matter more to himself than to the students. He calls the students 4 to 5 times a day to open their books and revise. Hence, the teacher becomes great in the eyes of the parents. The child can see just books around him. Wherever he goes, to the playground to grocery shops, his papa's friends say 'don't u have studies?'. Even in school, papa has some teachers as friends. Those teachers are the his spies. The child does a single mistake, and the news reaches his papa.
The child gets hatred for studies. He keeps his book open, but can't study. He memorizes, but forgets soon. Something else is going on in his mind during studies. What's that thing? TV, games, comics,....those which he didn't enjoy, or rather, couldn't enjoy. His tuition times never allowed, and his poor marks added fuel in the fire. Game is a necessary part of life, which he didn't get in optimum amount.
The tutor once said, 'your child doesn't study. Just takes poor exam, and after that, asks his friends 'tum kya likha, tum kya likha, tum kya likha'. Yes, the child did so, but why? To know if his own answer matched with his friends' answer. But what was parents' reaction? 'U take poor exam, and r concerned of what others have written?! U r guardian to those students?! See yourself. What will u do by knowing what they have written??' The child was told by papa the next day, 'your every movement in school would be watched, and the information will directly reach me. I have phone, Mr..... (some teacher) also has phone. He and the other teachers would inform me of every thing u do at school. What u write in exam, what you do after exam,....everything'. Papa tries to frighten the child. He has actually done nothing so much. But the child is too young to understand this. All he does is fearing the teachers. He finds himself in chains. His mania reaches to such an extent that even if he laughs with his friends at school, on seeing one of those 'spy' teachers, he stops laughing and hides himself. He seldom plays in the recess breaks, fearing his spy teachers would see, and complain his papa. He always tries to hide from them.
The child can't play, and as a result, doesn't have knowledge about games. He can't even hold a cricket bat properly. His papa directly told him 'your games are banned' on the day he saw the failure result. But he had actually banned his child's games long ago, when he appointed tuitions for him, one which taught him 4 times in holidays, and twice in classdays. Still the child struggled. Struggled with all the mental pain, and brought good marks in all subjects, but flunked in one, where 90% of his classmates didn't get the pass marks. He expected better reaction from his parents this time. But, poor fellow, he never knew that a new line would be added in papa's scolding words. 'You have failed in this subject knowingly. U have been able to get good marks in the rest, means you would pass in this subject too. U have knowingly left the questions so that you fail. You have failed on your own wish'. Forget the praise for the efforts the child did to get 75% and 85% in the other 14 subjects. The child could tell of his classmates' performance. But he knows this would work only if his friends had done better. 'All others could pass. Why can't you' was the sentence his papa used. But now, he would say, 'what scores others have done, no need to look at. Just tell why YOU have failed'.
'Had I failed in some more subjects, papa would have scolded me less. I'd not be blamed for failing knowingly', the child thinks. And he knows, he would score poor marks even in his next exam.
7 YEARS LATER
'You have not lived your life, son. At your age, we played so many games. You cannot even hold a cricket bat properly. All you do is staying at home, and increasing your tummy. You are not at all fit for today's world'.
The child, sorry, the college guy looks at his papa. He asks in his mind, 'who's the cause behind this, papa?' but can't speak out. The fear that had grown in him long back for his papa, still haunts him. The mania remains....
The child listens this silently, with a heavy heart. He knows, he has to listen this from many more places. He is making himself ready. Papa is a friend of so many neighbours, even the grocery shop owner. He'd go and tell everyone. The child would be scolded from every side.
The child also knows one more thing. He'd fail in the next exam. But is too young to say this. Why won't he fail? He has the habit of overstudy. His day begins with pinchings and pushings by his mother early in the morning for his tuitions. He has to present himself there by 6, or even 5.30. The teacher is praised because he is never late there. Why would he? He knows he won't earn money if he doesn't go there. It is his daily bread. And what else does that teacher do? He cannot get through the books of his student, just reads and explains the matter more to himself than to the students. He calls the students 4 to 5 times a day to open their books and revise. Hence, the teacher becomes great in the eyes of the parents. The child can see just books around him. Wherever he goes, to the playground to grocery shops, his papa's friends say 'don't u have studies?'. Even in school, papa has some teachers as friends. Those teachers are the his spies. The child does a single mistake, and the news reaches his papa.
The child gets hatred for studies. He keeps his book open, but can't study. He memorizes, but forgets soon. Something else is going on in his mind during studies. What's that thing? TV, games, comics,....those which he didn't enjoy, or rather, couldn't enjoy. His tuition times never allowed, and his poor marks added fuel in the fire. Game is a necessary part of life, which he didn't get in optimum amount.
The tutor once said, 'your child doesn't study. Just takes poor exam, and after that, asks his friends 'tum kya likha, tum kya likha, tum kya likha'. Yes, the child did so, but why? To know if his own answer matched with his friends' answer. But what was parents' reaction? 'U take poor exam, and r concerned of what others have written?! U r guardian to those students?! See yourself. What will u do by knowing what they have written??' The child was told by papa the next day, 'your every movement in school would be watched, and the information will directly reach me. I have phone, Mr..... (some teacher) also has phone. He and the other teachers would inform me of every thing u do at school. What u write in exam, what you do after exam,....everything'. Papa tries to frighten the child. He has actually done nothing so much. But the child is too young to understand this. All he does is fearing the teachers. He finds himself in chains. His mania reaches to such an extent that even if he laughs with his friends at school, on seeing one of those 'spy' teachers, he stops laughing and hides himself. He seldom plays in the recess breaks, fearing his spy teachers would see, and complain his papa. He always tries to hide from them.
The child can't play, and as a result, doesn't have knowledge about games. He can't even hold a cricket bat properly. His papa directly told him 'your games are banned' on the day he saw the failure result. But he had actually banned his child's games long ago, when he appointed tuitions for him, one which taught him 4 times in holidays, and twice in classdays. Still the child struggled. Struggled with all the mental pain, and brought good marks in all subjects, but flunked in one, where 90% of his classmates didn't get the pass marks. He expected better reaction from his parents this time. But, poor fellow, he never knew that a new line would be added in papa's scolding words. 'You have failed in this subject knowingly. U have been able to get good marks in the rest, means you would pass in this subject too. U have knowingly left the questions so that you fail. You have failed on your own wish'. Forget the praise for the efforts the child did to get 75% and 85% in the other 14 subjects. The child could tell of his classmates' performance. But he knows this would work only if his friends had done better. 'All others could pass. Why can't you' was the sentence his papa used. But now, he would say, 'what scores others have done, no need to look at. Just tell why YOU have failed'.
'Had I failed in some more subjects, papa would have scolded me less. I'd not be blamed for failing knowingly', the child thinks. And he knows, he would score poor marks even in his next exam.
7 YEARS LATER
'You have not lived your life, son. At your age, we played so many games. You cannot even hold a cricket bat properly. All you do is staying at home, and increasing your tummy. You are not at all fit for today's world'.
The child, sorry, the college guy looks at his papa. He asks in his mind, 'who's the cause behind this, papa?' but can't speak out. The fear that had grown in him long back for his papa, still haunts him. The mania remains....
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